History

Today I figured out my idea of why I think i should be kept on this Earth.

I have this great teacher who asked us for an essay explaining why we should be kept on this Earth, why we should spend money on our lives being kept.

Now if the money spent on on dosent add up to what you will do for the Earth then i suppose your left wondering what you're really ment to do.

I sat and I though what I wanted to do to change the world not if but what. Basicly why am i living I came up with this:

"I am worth no more then anyone else yet I worth no less. My needs are simple and basic but what i plan to accomplish is much more complex then materialistic things. I've never been able to easily explain my thoughts, so please bear with m. I want to listen to everyone and know them. It sounds insane and unrealistic but someone should and I want to be that person. See we're all not so different. The way I see it, we are all divided into "types" "sections" and "groups" and we belong to one or two. Whether it be personality, traits, ideas, actions, we all end up being alike. I want to know every type of person that walks around and why they are who they are, "good" or "bad" (I don't really think there is GOOD or BAD since there is both existing in us but our actions morally and ethically being wrong or right) I want to listen to everyone's stories because its what we all really want, just to be heard and feel cared about.

I want to be a film maker and not what is considered a "good one" but one who is bluntly honest and enchants you with REAL stories. I will actually bring truth to everyone's eyes, things we can relate to, since now a days we learn more from visual things rather then reading (because we've become lazy and have short attention spam) or hearing (since we've lost people who enjoy telling stories or even worse people who want to go out and make stories happen) I want to make everyone find themselves and have REAL, ACTUAL, INTELLEGENT, WITH DEPTH conversations and even more beautiful than that I want them, you, us, to THINK like that.

I want to also take potraits of poeple that tell their stories with one shot. POWERFULL photogprahs or POWERFUL people. I will paint feelings we all share but hide because she are ashemed or afraid that no one else feels like that. Feelings that make us feel misplaced in this world and has lonleyness stalk us. Memories in thoughts and feelings and colours. I don't want to change the world but change our minds, thoughts, hearts, sould, habits, fears, ideas...that are in us but we're to lost to find them and use them or even worse we know we have them we just won't bring them out. What I want to change is the wil that we have not to do something or speak.

I want us all to talk and feel with no shame."

Now i know its not great and it was made in a time period of twenty minutes but i was confused b y what he wrote in my paper. He congratulated me and said that I will do what i wrote and liked my ideas but before all of that he put "amazing effort" and for some odd reason that got me thinking maybe it was too unrealistic to think of this as a goal and not actually something I could do.